hours of frightened midnight conversations
with friends by phone and the organized safe-sex and massage
sessions, far from the hysteria and the solace, Austin did not
know what to think of this disease that had taken them by chance,
as though he had awakened to find himself in a cave under the
heavy paw of a lioness, who was licking him for the moment and
breathing all over him with her gamy, carrion smell but who was
capable of showing her claws and devouring him today...or tomorrow.
White is particularly interested in cultural
differences, and he establishes early in his novel how different--and
equally inadequate--the French and American approaches to AIDS
are:
Americans sat up telling each other horror
stories, but they were later astonished when their worst fantasies
came true, as if they'd hoped to ward off evil by talking it
into submission or by taking homeopathic doses of it. The French,
however, feared summoning an evil genius by pronouncing its name.
Neither system worked. When the lioness awakened and felt the
first hunger pains, she would show her claws.
For the moment, Austin opts for the French
approach with Julien, and they begin seeing each other without
Austin sharing his secret. At his age (forty-nine when the novel
begins), Austin can't risk losing Julien. But the duplicity unnerves
him, and he eventually tells Julien he's HIV-positive. Against
his expectations, Julien not only forgives Austin's earlier reticence;
he even decides to stay with Austin in order to take care of
him when the virus goes full-blown.
The relationship isn't perfect, though. Julien's
divorce proceedings drag on, and he is rather morbidly self-absorbed
and tends to go on at length about his perfect childhood, which
Austin knows he would find boring if he were French, "but
at least half of what attracted him to Julien was that knowing
him represented a total immersion into France." As White
writes, "a love affair between foreigners is always as much
the mutual seduction of two cultures as a meeting between two
people." Decidedly more troubling to Austin is Julien's
pronounced distaste for gay culture. Julien quickly rejects Austin's
gay friends (including his closest friend, an American ex-lover),
and Austin finds himself suddenly isolated.
Despite their problems, they travel a bit,
and their relationship grows stronger--and more obviously necessary--after
Austin accepts a teaching position in America and Julien is kept
out of the country temporarily over visa troubles. America, Austin
finds, is a foreign, unpleasant place (White's descriptions of
Providence's suburbs are exotic and eerily strange), and while
he waits for Julien's papers to be straightened out, he worries
that he will be trapped alone in America while Julien reconciles
happily with his wife in Paris. Indeed, so desperately isolated
is he that he begins to seem almost like a Paul Bowles character,
trapped alone and dying in a seemingly endless, dark desert with
nothing--absolutely, miserably nothing--to follow his death.
(More on Bowles later.) The new, politically correct atmosphere
at the university doesn't help matters; Austin soon finds himself
unwittingly embroiled in a series of bizarre PC issues that gets
him in trouble with the dean. (His ready defense--"But I'm
gay"--doesn't save him.)
Inevitably, Providence doesn't work out, at
least partly because Austin and Julien "had not been the
sort of dotty, aging gay couple an academic community likes--great
cooks, kindly uncles to faculty children, demon bridge players."
They return to Paris, but their relationship has already shifted
subtly. Julien's AIDS test comes back positive, and Austin (who,
far from sliding into full-blown AIDS himself, is actually gaining
weight) becomes something of a caregiver for Julien as the disease
begins to ravage him. In time, they grow physically less and
less active and even begin to resemble a long-married, burnt-out
couple.
White's narrative gets a bit loose as he lets
Julien and Austin's relationship wind down through its inevitable,
rather stagnating mimicry of marriage, but the intelligence behind
his examination of the relationship's shifting dynamics and the
sheer beauty of his writing throughout the novel more than make
up for it. Here, for example, is a wonderfully concise portrait
from Julien and Austin's trip to Venice:
They went for a stroll down the echoing pedestrian
walkways that contracted into a sordid little path smelling of
cat urine, then dilated into a proper calle lined with
elegant shops selling marbleized paper, men's silk pajamas and,
further on, multi-hued summer sweaters of silk and wool. A standing
gondolier glided past, but neither the canal nor his barque were
visible and he looked as though he were a moving target in a
shooting gallery.
But The Married Man picks up its pace
and sense of urgency in the final one hundred pages, where, as
Julien and Austin eventually travel to Morocco for a final trip
together, White's writing becomes so beautifully sad that it's
almost too painful to read at times. Strangely, while reading
these pages, I found myself thinking of Catherine and Frederick
Henry's flight from the war in A Farewell to Arms. Both
couples are fleeing death--hopelessly, of course--and trying
to find a quiet respite of love, but it's such an odd, unexpected
comparison that I won't belabor it. The more obvious reference
is to Paul Bowles, particularly his first novel, The Sheltering
Sky, which likewise ends with a horrific death in the existentially
charged Sahara.
But White isn't finished yet. Shockingly,
although he has done little to prepare us for it, he reveals
crucial secrets in The Married Man's final pages that
make everything that preceded them seem like an immensely elaborate
origami work that reveals its complex images in a sudden, unexpected
flourish. It's a masterly effort, and White's ability to entertain
and move his readers on so many different levels shows he's one
of the best, most patient and intelligent novelists working today.
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